"Happy New Year" ... I think it's the most meaningless desire expression. Because what exactly is happiness? 'Happiness' is very personal for everyone right? One is only happy when millions in the bank account, the other is happy when he or she is on holiday and a wanderer might have been very happy, because it is such a mild winter. My friend who is a widow indeed, may never be happy, her life stopped at the death of her husband ... A patient may be happy if the disease remains stable, it does not even need to be better, if not worse.
When would my year "happy" be called? No idea, what more financial space would be fine, because my parents thus happier through life, so naturally I. A stable year of illness without specialists would visit me quite happy, but when I'm sick, I'm not un-happy, so well what is happiness? I'm actually always happy. We have a roof over our heads, we have each other, we have to eat every day, have nice friends, dear animals, etc etc, so quite a lot of reasons to be happy, even in the new year.
Is there anything I am unhappy? Yes! That is definitely there. I am very unhappy people who do not understand their own opinion and thereby forcing me to pass on my experience. If I get attacked by a word that the reader does not like, between a lot of well-intention-ed loving words, that's what makes me very unhappy.
It happened to me just before the new year. I was attacked because I have a loving piece from my own feelings and personal capacity wrote for someone I've lost recently. That is the risk of your feelings visible to everyone on the internet, like my diaries here. I'm an open book because I choose for themselves. But while I no shit continues to publicly take down, I think I just MY diary should write what I experience and HOW I experience. What impressed me most hurt, is that people that you think they're after twenty years know well, so still the content of your words - so feelings - can not understand. Look, that's what makes me so very unhappy.
Now it is this year, and subsequent years, the challenge in this kind of business to remain true to myself and that's what I insist, I'm proud of myself this year! And people who have a problem with it and I had a bad feeling about trying to give that get it back, just go back. It is now 2013 and I all agree it very differently. People around me are used to from me that I always bending to the big picture, but was in my little kingdom I am the Queen. So this year I want to look at myself and perhaps I am over there anyway then a bit happier!
When would my year "happy" be called? No idea, what more financial space would be fine, because my parents thus happier through life, so naturally I. A stable year of illness without specialists would visit me quite happy, but when I'm sick, I'm not un-happy, so well what is happiness? I'm actually always happy. We have a roof over our heads, we have each other, we have to eat every day, have nice friends, dear animals, etc etc, so quite a lot of reasons to be happy, even in the new year.
Is there anything I am unhappy? Yes! That is definitely there. I am very unhappy people who do not understand their own opinion and thereby forcing me to pass on my experience. If I get attacked by a word that the reader does not like, between a lot of well-intention-ed loving words, that's what makes me very unhappy.
It happened to me just before the new year. I was attacked because I have a loving piece from my own feelings and personal capacity wrote for someone I've lost recently. That is the risk of your feelings visible to everyone on the internet, like my diaries here. I'm an open book because I choose for themselves. But while I no shit continues to publicly take down, I think I just MY diary should write what I experience and HOW I experience. What impressed me most hurt, is that people that you think they're after twenty years know well, so still the content of your words - so feelings - can not understand. Look, that's what makes me so very unhappy.
Now it is this year, and subsequent years, the challenge in this kind of business to remain true to myself and that's what I insist, I'm proud of myself this year! And people who have a problem with it and I had a bad feeling about trying to give that get it back, just go back. It is now 2013 and I all agree it very differently. People around me are used to from me that I always bending to the big picture, but was in my little kingdom I am the Queen. So this year I want to look at myself and perhaps I am over there anyway then a bit happier!
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